Okay, so here’s the thing. Several weeks ago I put on my blog landing page that my first post would be “coming soon in May 2025!” As I write this, it’s after 8:00pm on May 31st. I have two drafts, three other posts started, and none that are ready yet to share with the world.
Upholding my commitments is really important to me.
I’ve struggled with perfectionism all my life. I also have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and ADHD. I’ve recently discovered some exciting new crafting skills that I’ve been guiltily putting more time into than I “should” have. I’ve had some extra stressors and drains on my time and mental energy lately. And I’ve had some joyful opportunities like my very first outdoor market that I put in a lot of effort into preparing for. I did not finish any of the posts that I started. And now I’m less than three hours away from breaking my word.
So here’s me keeping my promise that I’d publish my first post in May 2025.
I have no illusions that what I’m writing at the moment is groundbreaking. Quite possibly nobody but me and my incredibly supportive partner will actually read this. But I have to remind myself that that’s not the point of this blog. I’m doing this as a way to practice transparency and accountability.
Trying to hide the fact that I’m quite messy, rather scatterbrained most of the time, and frankly terrible at ‘time management’ helps no one. I hope that owning that and–dare I say–even celebrating that might help me chip away at the perfectionism that so often keeps me from sharing what’s in my heart. And maybe others out there will see themselves reflected in these experiences and can feel a little less alone. Those hopes of mine are the lettuce and tomato on this nothing-burger of a post. I don’t have much to say that’s significant, but if it provides me and anyone reading this with a bit of nourishment, that makes it worthwhile.